when you do something because your afraid to do it, how much is facing your fears and how much is being controlled by your fears? im headed down to miami for a cousin's wedding this weekend. last time i was down there we jumped off the bridges nearby. im not gonna say how high they are, cause that would just be me bragging! and id probably exagerate like crazy. i totally racked myself trying to do a flip. i didnt really want to try it again.
when rock jumping into the potomac recently (on the md side of course) i tried to do a flip again. i landed square and all, so i was pretty satisfied. but for some reason i couldn't stop there. of course i had to try and go father and try something else. anyway to spare the details i ended trying something harder, but my whole motivation to do it was because i was afraid to do it. i kinda had to just jump without thinking about it, before i convinced myself otherwise.
i got to thinking about why i was so compelled to do it though. what do i have to prove and was that why i had to try something i was afraid of. is it healthy to try something just because your not comfortable, or is that really your fear controlling you in another way? undoubtedly there is no yes or no answer. life always has conditions and varying motivations that can be legitimate. im always just curious what my motivations are.
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it's okay; you're just trying to prove you've got ovaries (refer back to my blog)
joel blaine has balls and don't you forget it, anna grothe.
fear in the most primal fashion is a mechanism to keep ourselves safe. i think the motivation to break through the fear or give in to it is driven by our definition of safe.
yeah, it takes serious ovaries just being me every day.
there may be a difference between doing something because you're afraid of it,and doing something in spite of being afraid. The first, to me, seems like mere bravado and showmanship, and I would guess that the things that people do because they're afraid of them generally have potentially physical consequences. The things people do in spite of the their fears, I would guess, have potentially more emotional and spiritual consequences. I think the second category is healthy and rewarding. The first is probably more thrilling but more short lived and shallow.
that was kind of long-winded. i like the blog joel! hope to talk to you soon
JOel! Yes yes, I am home. I would love to see you, too. Good blog entry--I've been thinking about Fear a lot, so it gave me something new to think about. See you soon i hope!
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