gob

i guess i have been trying too hard to find fulfillment from work. been a little convicted of that lately. i am trying to work on this. on the same note, i am also looking around at some job possibilities. i like my job pretty fine most of the time. some days i like it quite a bit, other days not as much. my boss is cool, and the office is playing paintball soon. im pretty much going to die of laughter playing paintball with middle-aged dudes.

its not that i dont think that i could be fufilled here but i think there may be other places that would be a better partnership between job and me. right now we (my job and me)are just kind of roomates who live in the same place, but dont really hang out. um maybe thats a bad analogy. maybe its like a book you read because your bored, but you wouldnt read the sequel. ok that doesnt really work either.

i know (or think) that working any gig for God is where fufillment is derived, i just dont really believe it all that often. (on a side note i feel like as i have progressed in knowing about God and what he cares about, i dont know Him as well. i guess im sort of in a funk.)

my boss keeps talking about how much work is coming up and how he is having a hard time hiring, so it puts a little strain on trying to make a clean exit. its been 9-10 months that ive been with this gig and the soonest i would abandon ship would be in the winter (dont want to miss paintball). while i am satisfied with the job, there are still some trails id like to explore. i want to stretch out a bit and see if i cant find some clothes that fit a little better. i think i can switch it up without being driven by a desire to define myself by my job...but ill probably need some help and some reminders of where im headed. so remind me.

im trying to get plugged into a few org's in baltimore.
the bike coop http://www.velocipedebikeproject.org/
baltimore biodiesel http://www.baltimorebiodiesel.org/
art on purpose http://www.artonpurpose.org/
neighborhood design center http://www.ndc-md.org/ - im starting a project with them next week. they sound pretty great and are not but 3 blocks from my house. hopefully this might bring up some good longer term kinda options for another job?

the trick is for me not to be defined by this voluntouring either.

p.s. possible job ideas: green/community development, alternate energy, community garden, something abroad, teach(very naive about this), carpentry, board/graphic/somekind of design, making stuff, any ideas?

p.p.s i had some kind of sandwhich with onions and fries today and my fart factory is working way overtime. way overtime.