to do, to do

yowzers. i feel hectic! haha. not unique to me, surely many friends are or have gone through this feeling, financial/career uncertainty tries to eclipse the rest of life.

i am leaving my job and i am done on tuesday. whats next? unemployment for now. i must try to find a part time gig for hopefully no more than 1 month. there are a lot of really cool looking opportunities that seem to be lining up, but they definately feel like pipe dreams sometimes. i am excited, hopeful, and sort of skeptical about many... but mostly excited. now mostly skeptical.

i wonder how/if these new career adventures will change me. i have fears of becoming tight-fisted while trying to be savvy with money when the money is not guaranteed. i have fears of becoming a grinch with time and slipping back into the 24 hr work mind i had at some times in college. i think i loosened up a little with a 9-5 kind of job (and wish to loosen up a lot more), but i think it will be tougher when things are more undefined and more hinged on personal productivity. i must ask my friends how they manage it. they seem pretty good at it.